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Oct 28th, 2008

So confused....

I am so lost as to how to clearly communicate to somebody that it is over...i have tired everything even saying it flat out....still not getting through....she seems to hear the words and process them and loses it for a few and then an hour later it is as if she has blocked them right out....

I love my family very much, but my wife is killing me slowly and surely. Telliong me she wishes i was drinking again while knowing full well that drinking will kill me....i msut come to grips with the fact and the knowledge that i have failed at my wmarriage, that we have failed. Accept it and move on....yet it seems to tear at me ever more....too nice apparently for my own good...never wanting to cause grief suffering or pain for those that i care for....even if at the cost of my sanity.....my heart.....and msotly my soul....

Posted by bipolarwreck at 12:55 on Oct 28th, 2008

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mhgintn	Posted on 01:26PM on Oct 28th, 2008 Do not wait, for your own survival, even if you have to go to the library and check it out to read it, get a copy of M. Scott Peck's PEOPLE OF THE LIE. When someone wants you to go back to behavior that you know will kill you, they are doing just that, trying to kill you as a means to empower them. Read Dr. Peck's book and see your spouse there (hint: named 'Sara' in Peck's book).
KittenHasaWhip Feeling busy	Posted on 10:10AM on Oct 29th, 2008 You have to do what's right for you. It isn't your fault if someone doesn't hear you or listen to you. It's a form of manipulation they are using. Just tell her that you have explained enough and now it's her turn to understand.
mhgintn	Posted on 02:36PM on Oct 29th, 2008 Okay, you've had a few days now; have you acquired a copy of Peck's book, People Of The Lie?
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