The Blog of bipolarwreck

As the new year approaches and my marriage fastly erodes, I have found myself teetering on the realization of many thoughts.  My mind not able to stop, I sit and I ponder for far too long into the twilight of hours... 

Which has led to a decision that should have been made years ago....FUCK EVERYBODY!!!  I am no longer breaking my back and giving beyond my limits only for the very ones who benefit the most to take me for granted.  The supposed friends only to turn their backs as soon as they hear something that they want not to...so much for the statements of being there and to be supportive and an ear when needed.  Fuck that, you were all only availalbe as long as it suited to your needs.  When I truly needed, you were no where to be found and when I did find you, all you could do was to judge and criticize...glass houses love....glass houses....

So I have determined that for once, I am the first in line and I am doing  for me and no other...My happiness and peace of mind is the only goal anymore.  I am following my heart and I am living for me for a change and this is something that I will never go back on ever in my life again...

so to all of thsoe that this may apply to, I truly do wish the best for you and yours but it is time for me to move forward and rebuild the many bridges that I so hastily burnt on my path of destruction.  I will never go backwards again, I will never put myself last amongst the order...I am tired of the lies spoken from the mouths of what I once thought and believed to be friends...I am tired off the "omission of truth" as it best suits yourself and not me, these are amongst very selfish acts of cowardness and I am no longer willing, able, or wanting to be the strength that gets you by. 

Simply put, I have no more money to the Piper and now I must face him, as do all of you.  Farewell and the best forever for you and yours...Take care friends